faerieangelwing

Today's been okay. I went swimming and watched some neighbors swim. I ate a ramen, chex mix and 2 hamburgers. I've totally shot myself to hell.
Today has been okay. I'm still sorting through my life trying to keep everything together. This is my site where I talk about my eating disorder, so I should say something.

My Mom started reading Helping Your Child with an Eating Disorder. I'm going to DBT soon for my ed. I'm scared as hell about what treatment is. So I feel fatter than a house right now. I'm gonna try and go to the store and get some dieting pills.

So I've been out of town. Sorry I haven't written. I spent Wednesday and Thursday in Wisconsin and Friday-Sunday in Nebraska. My ass probably died with all of that driving.

I can't really complain about anything right now. I'm getting treatment in July but I'm scared. I don't know what's gonna happen. I don't want my control to be taken away from me.

I'm sooo tired. I have this cold now. But I'll be alright. I just need to sleep, which I'm doing a lot of. And that's always needed. Insomnia is no fun.

Yesterday, I got Pita Ten 1-4 and I've read through it. If you haven't read it and enjoy cute little angels, I definetly recomend you read this! *smile*

More of my fic. Tell me how it is, and thanks for all the support.

Later before bed, Nancy walked over to Robin, who was reading in the corner. "Mom, I wanna make Hotarua a purple bracelet for her birthday. Could you help me with it?" Asked Hotaru.

"Oh, that's a wonderful idea!"said Robin happily. "We can get stuff for it this weekend."

"Thanks," Nancy turned and walked upstairs for bed. "I'm so tired." Soon she was dreaming of a girl playing with paper. She could control it!
Nancy went through the bed and landed on the floor with a hard smack. "Why does this keep happening? Should I tell Papa?"

Kyo walked into the room. "Nancy, are you alright? I heard a loud sound. Did you fall of the bed?"said Kyo worrying.

"Kyo, it keeps happening. The thing I told you about. I didn't fall of the bed." Nancy rubbed her head. It hurt very bad now. "What's wrong with me?"

"Nothing. There's nothing wrong with you. We all have secret things that we can do. If you're worried, then maybe you should tell someone about it."

Nancy began crying. "I've known it for a long time, Kyo. That we're not normal. We're different from everyone. See?" She walked through the wall and back out again.

"Wow! That's really cool! You have a talent, Nancy. Don't let anyone tell you differently."

"Really?"

"Yeah. I've never met anyone that can do that." Nancy hugged him. He turned into a cat.

"Is that your speacial talent?"

"Yeah." He turned back.

"Do you know what Hotaru's power is?"

"I don't. Maybe she hasn't figured it out yet."

"That's possible. I bet it's something cool. Thanks for talking tomorrow. Good night."

"Good night." Kyo left the room as Hotaru walked in rubbing her eyes.

Okay. So I went to Border's bookstore today. AND OMG! They have like EVERY MANGA AVAILIBLE! Because of what my Dad did, I got to get Manga and a c.d. So I got Pita Ten 1-4 for only 29.99!!! Because I got the box. I was gonna get Princess Ai too, but they only had 2-3. Maybe next time. XD And I got Alicia Keys as my cd. It's really good.

Pita Ten is really really cute! Has anyone ever read or heard of Angel's Diary? I saw it today and it looked really really cute. Hopefully Sydney and I can get together tomorrow because I'm dying to give her her present! ^-^

Chapter 7
That Monday it was time to go back to school. They slept peacfully until 6:30, when Robin came in to wake them up.

"5 more minutes," grumbled Kyo.

"'K. I'm gonna go wake up the girls. I'll be back in 5 minutes." Robin said as she walked out the door.

Kyo fell asleep and was dreaming of Tohru. They had become really close and he was pretty fond of her. Kyo was always protecting her. She made him feel so speacial. When she called his name, he felt like he was being called home. He wanted to stay with her always.
Kyo opened his eyes and sat up slowly. He went down stairs and even Nancy was sitting at the table. "Am I late?" asked Kyo.
"No, your fine. Sit down and have breakfast with us." Vash smiled. "I hate to be a bother and do this, but did you all get your homework done?"
"Yes," the children said.
Kyo yawned and drank his milk. Soon Tohru was knocking on the door to walk with them. She did every morning. Kyo ran to the door and smiled. "Come in, Tohru. Good morning!" Kyo said happily.
"Good morning, Kyo-kun!" Tohru smiled as she entered the house. Kyo grabbed his bag and put on his shoes. Nancy and Hotaru walked over and smiled. They got on their shoes and ran out the door, but not before Nancy stuffed a new book in her bag.
Nancy was always reading. Each day was a new adventure and story for her to read. She sat in class trying to pay attention. Her mind wandered and things were to boring. She thought of the book she had read last night. Her favorites were science fiction and mystery. She gave up and let her mind wander.
Her birthday was in a few months. And Hotaru's was in 15 days. She wanted to make her something. She decided on making her a purple bracelet with Robin's help.
It was time for gym, which Nancy loved. Especially running. The feeling of her feet hitting the ground. The sound of her breathing and the cloud of dust.
"Today we'll be playing softball," the teacher said.
Nancy was the first one to bat. She looked at the pitcher unwind. She breathed deep and took a swing. Nancy sent the ball flying. She ran to first base as the children screamed home run! She kept running. To second and third. Now home. It was getting close. She took a slide as the teacher yelled safe!
"Yay Nancy!" The children cheered.
"Nancy, you should be in track and softball when your older," said the teacher happily.
Nancy smiled. She stood up and walked over to the bench and smiled again.

Bleh. Stupid parental controls. I can't change my name back to Patrice. I am no longer Bunnie/Bunneh/Bunny because that is the name that they gave me. I mean Pyro and Ami. So I am going by Patrice again. I know that it seems childish, but Bunnie/Bunneh/Bunny is a childish nickname that reminds me of people that I don't need to remember right now.

I know that there were good times, but because they wrote me hate letters and stuck them in my mailbox instead of telling me how they felt to my face. Which is one of my biggest pet peeves. Which I know that we all do. I'm trying now to no longer do this.

We all know what we've done, Lola, Ami, Pyro, me. I've decided to move on. I've burnt most of the stuff that they've given me because it's all lies. I had to get rid of it. I can't keep punishing myself by living in those lies. I just need to move on for my own mental sake.

It doesn't mean that I don't regret what I've done, I do, but I can't go on like this a single moment longer. Barb said that it was a good idea (Barb's my therapist).

On a good note, I get some anime and manga today when my mom gets home in 30 minutes. I don't know what I'm gonna get, but I'm happy. I hope that your all doing good.

I know that I haven't added more of my fic in a long time, so just for you, I'm gonna give you more. ^-^

Chapter 6
Thanksgiving break

Nancy wandered down stairs smelling the sweet smell of Robin baking cookies. "Good morning, Nancy." Robin said as she pulled a batch out of the oven. She set them down.

"Good morning." Nancy rubbed her eyes. "What kind of cookies are those?"

"Chocolate chip." Robin smiled. "How late did you stay up reading?"

"Only 1 this time."

Thanksgiving break was great for everyone. The turkey was delicious and they all played together before going upstairs to paint their rooms.

Nancy, Kyo and Hotaru put on overalls and converses to paint. They started in Kyo's room. The walls were soon covered in bright orange.

They finished painting both rooms and each of the kids had orange and purple splots of paint on their overalls.

Hanajima had a wonderful holiday as well. She went to her grandmas house and had a nice visit with her.

That monday it was time to go back to school.

I'll add more later. I gotta go get my stuff.

*Hugs and Kisses!*

~Patrice

I'm doing pretty good. My Dad and I are better, we worked it out. Sorry to make you all worry like that. Don't worry, I was scared too. But I'm fine now. I've mostly been occupying myself and working. I've been babysitting a lot. And watching a bunch of movies. I just sit there and stare at the screen for hours at a time.

Ben doesn't know about it and we haven't talked since the last day of school because I don't want him to cry. He's cried enough for me. And that's okay. I don't want him to feel my pain, so that's okay. I'm gonna call him probably soon.

Watched Evita today. It really brought back memories of my childhood. That's always fun. I promise that I'm fine. No more lying, no more running.

Yesterday, I went to therapy and we talked about what happened last friday. Mrs. Connor was there because she's mentoring us. She's trying to get her masters degree in psycology. And I don't mind, I've always enjoyed her company. Barb (my therapist) said that me sitting in front of the t.v is normal after what's happened to me, and they both agree that it's way better than cutting, smoking,purging. Ya know, all my old coping skills.

I'm starting DBT soon which will help me identify my moods and my emotions, also help me not to go to extremes so quickly.

I'm doing pretty good, I hope that you guys are too.

*Hugs and kisses, lots of 'em!*

~Bunnie

I'm doing a little better. I'm waiting for WomanKind to call. I know that they'll do an investigation, I don't know when or anything. What happens or stuff like that.

I'm just writing. It's one of the only things that gets me through. I'm gonna call Ben soon and tell him everything and see what he has to say. But I won't for a while 'cause he's probably still sleeping. Or just went to bed.

~Bunnie

I was cleaning today. Well, actually looking for my Titanic video the second part, and I found a sailor moon video. I didn't even know that I had it. So I'll probably watch that tomorrow. I'm feeling a little better about what happend last night.

I'm writting about it. I'm gonna make a story out of my life. I might post it on here. I'm not really sure yet.

SOMEONE HELP!!!
OMG! I NEED HELP RIGHT NOW!

Yesterday night, I got in a fight with my mom and things only got worse. Okay, so for the last three days, my Mom told me that I was supposed to make my sister a poster for graduating. So my Mom lays stuff out on the table where I was supposed to make the poster.

And there was stuff for my sisters scrapbook there too. So my mom never explained to me what was what. I start gluing the stuff on the poster. And my mom walks over to me and is like:"WHAT ARE YOU DOING?"

"the poster!"

"NO!!!! THOSE WHERE FOR HER BOOK!" At this point I get up and grab my sweatshirt and walk out of the room. My dad takes me into my room where my sister is sleeping. And he starts yelling at me. I try to explain my point of view, but he wouldn't listen. So I say I'll go appologise so that he'll leave and I can get the hell outa there.

I run out of the house as my mom tries to talk to me. "NO! DON'T TALK TO ME! I HATE YOU!" I scream and walk out the door and to my neighboors house. My Dad follows me for a while. I finally go home after about 30 minutes because I needed my cell phone.

My dad drags me by the arm and throws me down by the pool. "Get up bitch!" I get up. He grabs me by the neck.

"Dad, let go of my neck." He raises his fist. My neighboors are outside. "DAD! LET GO OF MY NECK!" I scream. He lets go and we "talk." I begin to cry.

So today, I called womankind and I'm not sure of what's gonna happen next. I think that they'll call tomorrow.

I'm doing okay. Not really. I don't really know. I finished school today. Just a lot of chaos in my life right now. I'll be better when things aren't so hectic.

Went to my sisters graduation last night. It was really cool. Really nice!

HAMFKAS!

~Bunnie

Okay, todays been one motherfucking long day. I'm only gonna apologise for this major language once so please excuse my language.

I'm soooooooooooooo stressed right now. OMG! Okay, today I get to school at 7 and take my math final until 9:40. Then I go vege out and shit. Just take some time to relax.

Then I go back to class and take the rest of my final until 11:30. Then I call my mom because I need to get the fuck outa there. So she comes and gets me and we go eat lunch. And that was nice. Then I get to school and take my gym final with Ms. Meads, a motherfucking bitchy whore. Can you tell that I really like her?

And I go home and that was cool. Until my grandma and grandpa, the evil ones that think I'm going to hell, come. And they bring my cousins who are prejudice bastards. And I'm like dude! I don't need this shit because it's been only a month since I overdosed.

So we fight for a while and I go cutt. But a good thing about my day was the fact that I got Jewels new cd. And that was amazing.

So tomorrow I get to take the last 4 finals and then go to my sisters graduation ceremony. And then I get to spend the last day at home. Because I'm trying to get it to work out to where I don't have to go. So wishing for that. I keep saying that it's only till Sunday, and Sunday seems so far away.

~Bunnie

I just want to keep believing the lies. I just want to tell myself that my so-called brother wouldn't do that to me. I want to believe that it is my fault for what happened. We had so much good times. So much laughter. I know that it's not my fault. I know that it isn't. I know that I have to put back all of the memories. I have to stop living in it. I have to move on. My Mom could tell that I was really upset last night. So she called me into her room and we talked. We talked about how it wasn't worth it to cut, it wasn't worth it for me to purge. Because they don't deserve to see me self destruct. And I balled. I balled like a baby, but it felt so damn good.

We also talked about Ben. And how happy my Mom is that we're together. That he's always there for me. And we looked at his picture from the yearbook. And it's soooo cute! I swear, if he had Orange hair, he'd be Kyo.

I better call Ben. Because the tears are starting down my cheeks.

~Bunnie

1.What is your middle name?
Anne.
2. How big is your bed?
twin

3.what was the last song you listened to?
Listen to your heart-dht.

4. What are the last 4 digits in your cell phone number?
0625

5. What was the last thing you ate?
a yogurt parfee. yum!

6. Last person you hugged?
Sydney.

7. How is the weather right now?
Sunny.

8. Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?
mom

9. The first thing you notice about the opposite sex?
eyes. smile. personality.

10. Favorite type of Food?
idk healthy.

11. Do you want children?
yup

12. Do you get high?
On life! On anime! that's my drug. Friends is too.

13. Ever get so drunk you don't remember the entire night?
nope...

14. Hair color?
Redish Blondish
16. Do you wear eye contacts?
no but the colored ones are cool.

17. Favorite holiday?
Friday 13th

18. Favorite Season?
Spring.

19. Have you ever cried over a girl/boy?
yup

20. Last Movie you Watched?
miss congeniality.

29. What books are you reading?
im writing one.

30. Piercings?
2 but the closed up, so none.

31. Favorite Movie?
so many

32. Favorite football Team?
none.

33. What were you doing before filling this out?
doing another one... lol

35. AIM?
FallenAngel6535

36. Dogs or cats?
both

37. Favorite drink?
Dr. Pepper, Mountain Dew.

38. Favorite flower?
blue, or black rose

40. Have you ever loved someone?
yup

41. Who would you like to see right now?
All my friends.

42. What color are your bedroom walls?
yellow

43. Have you ever fired a gun?
yes

44. Do you like to travel by plane?
yeah

45. Right-handed or Left-handed?
left

46. If you could go to any place right now where would you go?
bens house

48. Are you missing someone?
yes

49. Do you have a tattoo?
not yet

50. Do you still watch cartoons on Saturday mornings?
yup

51. Are you hiding something from someone?
not anymore...

52. ARE YOU 18?
not yet

53. WHAT IS THE WALLPAPER ON YOUR CELLPHONE
my boyfriend!

54. DID YOU GET ENOUGH SLEEP LAST NIGHT?
hellz no, even though I slept all night haha

55. FIRST THING YOU THOUGHT ABOUT THIS MORNING?
idk, I was too tired to think

56. WHAT DO YOU HAVE HANDY AT YOUR BEDSIDE?
Paper and Pencils. Bens pictures!

57. GRILLED OR FRIED?
grilled

59. WHAT MAKES YOU UNIQUE?
idk, I'm me... nobody else is me, I think that's unique enough

60. ARE YOU AFRAID OF THE DARK?
no

61. FAVORITE HANGOUT?
I don't know. I guess just being by the beach.

63. FIRST THING YOU WILL BUY IF GIVEN 4 THOUSAND DOLLARS?
an apartment for me and ben when we're older. Like save it until we're 18 or older.

65. WHAT ARE YOU AFRAID OF?
things

66. ARE YOU A GIVER OR TAKER?
a little bit of both

67. WHAT ARE YOUR NICK NAMES?
I have a lot!

68. WHAT IS YOUR DAD'S MIDDLE NAME?
Lee

70. STUCK ON A DESERTED ISLAND & COULD BRING ONE THING?
Ben! How much fun would it be to be stuck on an island. Just like sit there and talk. Just spend some time alone. Like talk and stuff. Just walk around. Totally got distracted.

71. FAVORITE T.V. COMMERCIAL?
idk none...

72. WHO'S YOUR CELL PHONE PROVIDER?
Cingular

73. FIRST THING YOU'LL SAVE IN A FIRE?
cd's/posters/kitty/puppies...

74.What is your favorite color(s)
black/red/blue/orange/lime green/pink/purple.

75. WHAT ARE THE THINGS YOU ALWAYS BRING WITH YOU?
Hmm. myself. think about it, you can't go anywhere without yourself.

76. WHAT DID YOU WANNA BE WHEN YOU WERE A KID?
An oarnge doctor. I'm not kidding. I was gonna paint myself oarnge and be a doctor.

77. WHAT DO YOU USUALLY DO WHEN THE ALARM TURNS ON?
shut it off

78. THE COLOR OF YOUR BEDSHEET?
White.

79. WHO DO YOU WANT TO MEET?
so many people.

80. WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT BEF0RE Y0U GO TO BED?
I'm fucking tired.. dur

What kind of temperament do you have?

You Have a Melancholic Temperament

Introspective and reflective, you think about everything and anything.
You are a soft-hearted daydreamer. You long for your ideal life.
You love silence and solitude. Everyday life is usually too chaotic for you.

Given enough time alone, it's easy for you to find inner peace.
You tend to be spiritual, having found your own meaning of life.
Wise and patient, you can help people through difficult times.

At your worst, you brood and sulk. Your negative thoughts can trap you.
You are reserved and withdrawn. This makes it hard to connect to others.
You tend to over think small things, making decisions difficult.


So, take the quiz!

A month later, Robin was doing much better. She could now walk. They decided that they would now adopt children.

The young couple walked into the adoption agency. They found two girls hiding. The younger was hiding behind the older. Robin smiled to tell them that it was alright. The oldest ran to hide behind the wall. The youngest followed.

"Vash, they're afraid."Said Robin pointing at the two girls now hiding.

"What d'you think about them?"Vash asked.

"They'd be pefect!" Said Robin happily.

"Excuse me miss." Said Vash to the women at the desk. She turned and nodded. "We'd like to adopt the two girls hiding behind the walls overthere."

"Oh. Nancy is the oldest, she turned 7 in May. And her sister Hotaru, she's 5. They've been here for two years. They don't talk much except when they're around Kyo."

"Which ones Kyo?" Robin asked.

"Oh, he's the boy over there with the Oarnge hair. Kyo only talks to them as well." The lady said as she typed up the records. "Have you taken care of all of the paperwork?"

"We're not sure. While I look that up, you may talk to them."

"Alright." Said Vash.

"Kyo, Nancy, Hotauru, come here. I'd like you to meet your new Mom and Dad."

The three children walked over to Vash and Robin. They couldn't believe it. People actually wanted them. Kyo was in front of Nancy and Hotaru trying to protect them.

"Hi." Robin bent down to Kyo. "What's your name?"

"My name's Kyo." He looked away. Robin could barely hear him because he was mumbling.

"How old are you, Kyo?" aksed Robin.

"I'm nine." Kyo scratched his ears nervously. He hated having to talk to people, but he had to make sure that Hotaru and Nancy would be alright. "Are you actually adopting us?"Kyo aked Kyo still mumbling.

"Yeah. We are." Said Vash happily. He reached over and patted Kyo's head. Vash swore, he could hear and feel Kyo purring.

Nancy looked at Vash. She began to like him right away. "Nancy, Hotauru, don't be shy." The women at the desk said.

Nancy slowly walked over to Vash. She reached out her hand to him. She had to know if Vash was real because she was convinced that she would wake up any moment. She felt his hand. He was real! Nancy could actually touch him! She shyly took her hand away, but Vash took it in his. "Hey, Nancy. It's nice to meet you." Vash shook her hand smiling.

"Nice to meet you too." Nancy looked at Hotaru. "Don't worry, Hotauru, he's fine." Said Nancy.

Hotaru noticed that things were okay and walked over to Vash. "Are you sure that it's okay?"

"Yeah, it's fine. Go ahead." Nancy still hadn't let go of Vash's hand.

"Nice to meet you." Hotauru shook Vash's hand.

They all met each other. Kyo loved the feeling of Robin's hand. It was warm and soft. He could tell that she was a kind person with pure intentions. He relaxed more and began to open up more. He liked his new Mom a lot, and he had only been around her for a few moments.

The women looked at them. "You can take them home today. Everything's in order. Just sign the final papers and you can be on your way."

"Okay, thank you." Said Robin. They signed the papers and were soon saying goodbye and heading to the car.

When they pulled into the driveway, Hanajima was waiting. The children just stood there unsure of what to do.

Tell me what you think!

Okay. No more denying it. I have a problem with bulimia, and I'm getting help. Somehow, some way, I'm getting help. It'll probably be support groups or something like that. I don't really know all that much. But I'm getting the help that I need.

I only binged and purged once today, and that's before the whole meeting where I admitted that I have a problem.

So, continuing with my fanfic, I hope that you guys like it. Tell me how it is,k?

And Sydney,we should totally have a sleepover or get together this weekend!

Bulimia, also called bulimia nervosa, is a psychological eating disorder. Bulimia is characterized by episodes of binge-eating followed by inappropriate methods of weight control (purging). Inappropriate methods of weight control include vomiting, fasting, enemas, excessive use of laxatives and diuretics, or compulsive exercising. Excessive shape and weight concerns are also characteristics of bulimia. A binge is an episode where an individual eats a much larger amount of food than most people would in a similar situation. Binge eating is not a response to intense hunger. It is usually a response to depression, stress, or self esteem issues. During the binge episode, the individual experiences a loss of control. However, the sense of a loss of control is also followed by a short-lived calmness. The calmness is often followed by self-loathing. The cycle of overeating and purging usually becomes an obsession and is repeated often.

Bulimia was only diagnosed as its own eating disorder in the 1980s.

People with bulimia can look perfectly normal. Most of them are of normal weight, and some may be overweight. Women with bulimia tend to be high achievers.

It is often difficult to determine whether a person is suffering from Bulimia. This occurs because bingeing and purging is often done in secret. Also, individuals suffering from Bulimia often deny their condition.

Sufferers consume huge quantities of food. Sometimes up to 20,000 calories at a time. The foods on which they binge tend to be foods labeled as "comfort foods" -- sweet foods, high in calories, or smooth, soft foods like ice cream, cake, and pastry. An individual may binge anywhere from twice a day to several times daily.

A Family Member has an Eating Disorder

If you have a family member that with an Eating Disorder, your family member needs a lot of support. Suggest that your family member see an eating disorder expert. Be prepared for denial, resistance, and even anger. A doctor and/or a counselor can help them battle their eating disorder.




What is Bulimia?

Bulimia, also called bulimia nervosa, is a psychological eating disorder. Bulimia is characterized by episodes of binge-eating followed by inappropriate methods of weight control (purging). Inappropriate methods of weight control include vomiting, fasting, enemas, excessive use of laxatives and diuretics, or compulsive exercising. Excessive shape and weight concerns are also characteristics of bulimia. A binge is an episode where an individual eats a much larger amount of food than most people would in a similar situation. Binge eating is not a response to intense hunger. It is usually a response to depression, stress, or self esteem issues. During the binge episode, the individual experiences a loss of control. However, the sense of a loss of control is also followed by a short-lived calmness. The calmness is often followed by self-loathing. The cycle of overeating and purging usually becomes an obsession and is repeated often.

Bulimia was only diagnosed as its own eating disorder in the 1980s.

People with bulimia can look perfectly normal. Most of them are of normal weight, and some may be overweight. Women with bulimia tend to be high achievers.

It is often difficult to determine whether a person is suffering from Bulimia. This occurs because bingeing and purging is often done in secret. Also, individuals suffering from Bulimia often deny their condition.

Sufferers consume huge quantities of food. Sometimes up to 20,000 calories at a time. The foods on which they binge tend to be foods labeled as "comfort foods" -- sweet foods, high in calories, or smooth, soft foods like ice cream, cake, and pastry. An individual may binge anywhere from twice a day to several times daily.



A Family Member has an Eating Disorder

If you have a family member that with an Eating Disorder, your family member needs a lot of support. Suggest that your family member see an eating disorder expert. Be prepared for denial, resistance, and even anger. A doctor and/or a counselor can help them battle their eating disorder.

Causes?


There is currently no definite known cause of bulimia. Researchers believe it begins with dissatisfaction of the person's body and extreme concern with body size and shape. Usually individuals suffering from bulimia have low self-esteem, feelings of helplessness and a fear of becoming fat

Medical complications from bulimia?

Erosion of tooth enamel because of repeated exposure to acidic gastric contents.
Dental cavities, sensitivity to hot or cold food.
Swelling and soreness in the salivary glands (from repeated vomiting).
Stomach Ulcers.
Ruptures of the stomach and esophagus.
Abnormal buildup of fluid in the intestines.
Disruption in the normal bowel release function.
Electrolyte imbalance.
Dehydration
Irregular heartbeat and in severe cases heart attack
A greater risk for suicidal behavior
Decrease in libido


Symptoms?


Eating uncontrollably, purging, strict dieting, fasting, vigorous exercise,
Vomiting or abusing laxatives or diuretics in an attempt to lose weight. Vomiting blood
Using the bathroom frequently after meals.
Preoccupation with body weight
Depression or mood swings. Feeling out of control.
Swollen glands in neck and face
Heartburn, bloating, indigestion, constipation
Irregular periods
Dental problems, sore throat
Weakness, exhaustion bloodshot eyes

Risk Factors

There are certain professions where eating orders are more prevalent. Thinness is usually emphasized in these professions. The professions are: modeling, dancing, gymnastics, wrestling, and long-distance running.

Good news?

Bulimia can be overcome.

Statistics

Bulimia affects about 10% of college age women in the United States.
About 10% of individuals diagnosed with bulimia are men.
10% of individuals suffering from bulimia will die from either starvation, cardiac arrest, other medical complications, or suicide

this i dont think is me.

Not all that much happened today. Fell asleep in gym. played softball. And sidney, i dont have an eating disorder. im perfectly fine. okay? i know that your just worried about me, but really, there's no problem. but we can still go see Mr. Marek tomorrow if it'll make you feel better.

Also, um, i wanna do motivational speaking. i'm gonna go check on resources for the ed i dont have. im not mia! i swear im not! but ill go find resources and post em here if it'll make you happy.

Ya know, today was pretty good. Gonna go do that. Oh, and wrote a lot of my fanfic.

Today was okay I guess. I think that my parents are okay. And so is Ami. And my granddads better now. I was really worried cuz it sounded like he had lung cancer but I don't think so. I'm really happy about that. So not all that much has happened. I'm getting sleepy. I'll add more to the fanfic. Cuz it'll be another hour before I can sleep again. I'm so thirsty...

Chapter 2

Vash, I'm sorry I'm not doing very much." Robin said sadly sitting down slowly in a chair next to Vash.

"Hey, don't worry about it. Robin, you'll be able to soon. You just need to recover." Said Vash kissing her cheek lovingly. "Don't worry, you'll get your life back soon. You almost died. All you can do is move on. Stay in today. Don't dwell on the past, don't think of tomorrow. Just live in the now, the moment."

"Your right. I'll be well enough soon." Robin smiled. "We should get some sleep."

"Yeah, let's go to bed."

Okay, my mom is yelling at me for bed.

Totally did my homework. Yeah,no i didn't. But that's okay. I don't really care. It's just a romeo and Juliet essay. And umm, well, yeah. History too. Gotta pass. Shit. Totally not wanting to do that. Umm, yeah. I should actually go do stuff.

~Bunnie

Today's been okay. Sydney drew me this kickass drawing of me and my pirate whore. Tee hee! And except for the purging, which at the moment I don't regret, I've been strong. Just taking it one day at a time. I'm so proud of myself. Yeah. Yay for Bunnie!

Better finish Heather's scrapbook. I gotta give it to her on the 10th. So gotta be doing that. Heh heh. It's been 3 years in the making, and I hope that she likes it very much. All I gotta add in is pictures of her friends and also prom. Then the rest of the pages are for her to add. ^-^

But before I go my friend, I'll type my fanfic for Sydney. So here you go, my lovely friend. I'm super hyper. But here you go. Okay, it's basically Fruits Basket with a few minor changes, kinda. Okay, so Kyo, Hotaru (sailor saturn) and Nancy(R.O.D) are all addopted by Robin(witch hunter robin) and vash(trigun) are the parents. Shigure is Kyo's teacher, Hanajima is the nanny because she does it for makeup work so that she'll graduate, and Tohru is their neighboor.

Enjoy everyone! ^-^

Chapter 1

Robin was brought home in a wheelchair 6 months after the bulding had collapsed. Vash, her husband, helped her into the car. "Are you doing okay, honey?"

"Yes, thanks. I'm fine."Said Robin getting into the car. " Um, Vash, since I can't have kids, we should addopt."

"I'm glad your feeling good. Let's wait until later because I want you to get used to being home again, but I promise that we'll adopt as many kids as you like." Vash said smiling.

"Oh, Vash! Thanks so much! You've made me so happy!" Robin hugged Vash and by now they were in the car heading home.

A few minutes later, they pulled into the driveway and Hanajima helped Vash and Robin in the house.

"Thanks, guys!" Said Robin.

"It's no problem. I'm glad to help anytime. I made dinner." Hanajima said.

"Oh, what're we having?" asked Vash.

"Stir fry."

"Great!" Robin and Vash said together.

After cleaning everything up for the night, Hanajima got ready for heading home. "I'll see you tomorrow if you don't need me for anything else." Hanajima called while getting on her shoes.

"Nope, we're good." Said Vash.

"Alright. I'll see you two tomorrow. Have a great day!" She called and left.

"Tomorrow." Said Vash.

I'll add chapter 2 later, I gotta do homework and Heather's present. I'll see you guys later!

~Bunnie

Okay. Today was okay. I only picked my scabbs from my mosquito bites, so that's techincally not cutting, is it??? And Pyro, I'm better than that, and I know it. It's not my fault that his girlfriend is sick. It's not my fault that he's wanting me to stay sick so that he doesn't have to blame himself. And he's an asshole. He's a bastard, and I'm done playing their little games.

Today was pretty good. I had a nice day of therapy. Nice and good. Mom came. That was pretty good.

So gonna go sleep or read more Phantom of the opera, you know how it is.

Goodnight, and lots of hugs and kisses!

~Bunnie

Okay, I'm gonna add in some of my poems for all of you...and then get my bathing suit...hopefully.

This ones called flying.
I see you
Standing by the ocean
I walk over to you
And you smile

We begin to fly
We become free
You still hold my hand
And promise to never
Let it go

We look at the ground
And understand everything
No one can
Take us
We’ve become free

We fall to the Earth
And hit
The ocean smoothly
It holds us
In its arms

You still won’t
Let my hand go
We slowly walk
Onto the sand
We begin to watch
The sunset

You still won’t
Let my hand go
You sing softly
The lullaby you
Taught me long ago

Sing me a song
Take me to the ocean
Help me spread my broken wings
So I can fly away

The day begins to fade
You promise to
Never let me go
I smile and finally know
To fly here with you
Is to become free

Take me by the hand
And help me become free
From the chains that hold me down,
From the memories that haunt me so

Help me see the light,
Hold me and never let me go
Wipe the tears from my eyes
And smile for me
Save my broken heart
With your kind soul

Hold me and never let go
And I’ll hold onto you
Always here
In my bleeding heart


Okay, I really like these ones.